strength

So many people have been recently telling me that I am very strong. At first I didn't know how to respond to that statement because I always thought I was very weak. (being strong mentally emotionally and spiritually  not physically) I was doing some thinking and self reflecting.

I realized that the reason why I try my best to act/be strong is for the people I love. I feel like so many people around my life are so fragile. I love them so dearly and I fear everything falling apart if cannot be strong for them because they tend to lean on me when times are difficult and hopeless.

Stop. I want to make a note to myself. It should not be me whom gives the people I love strength or hope. It should be God. I have to constantly remember it is God who can give hope to the hopeless and help the helpless and love the people who need love.

At times, I also want to let go of this tiring responsibility and be free of these burdens to always stay strong for the people i love. I want to break down and cry. I also want to be prayed for... I also want to be taken care of... I also want to depend and lean on someone who can lead me to the right direction. I also want to be like a baby who needs parents to watch over her. I wonder if it is too much for me to ask for.

I want to tell everyone who thinks and believes that I am strong. In fact, I am very weak... Because I am very weak and because I feel burdened and overwhelmed when difficult situations pop up, the only direction I can turn to is to God... I am weak but God is strong, for that reason I can be strong because God is the one who gives me strength and hope to hold on til the end. Someone once told me that the reason why they think I'm strong is because I never give up on the people I love and also because even after all the difficult times, I can still be happy, joyful, and carry bright smiles. I praise the Lord for making me this way. I can't get any credit for this because I know it is God who created me this way. So... I hope whomever is reading this can remember that through God we can all be strong... :)


Both worry and stress reek of arrogance. They declare our tendency to forget that we've been forgiven, that our lives here are brief, that we are headed to a place where we won't be lonely, afraid, or hurt ever again, and that in the context of God's strength, our problems are small, indeed.