What a beautiful day it is today. Today seemed extraordinarily beautiful.
Lord, I give thanks for all the things I have in my life.
I give thanks for the talk I was able to have with Anne today.
I give thanks for the realization of your active and vivid presence in my life.
I give thanks for your gentle, loud, firm, and steady voice that is ever so present in my life.
I give thanks for giving me clearer vision for the future.
I give thanks for calling on me today and telling me that you are here with me
I give thanks for the peace in my family.
I give thanks for the loving, caring, kind, people in my life.
I give thanks for Nam moksanim, Cho moksanim, gomo, my family, my friends and many others.
I give thanks for the people in my life who pray for me in quiet places. Lord, I pray that you will bless their lives and make their lives shine even more lord.
I give thanks for all the loves I have received, all the prayers that have been prayed, all the caring words I have heard.
I give thanks for a peaceful and beautiful day today.
I give thanks for the peace that was placed in my heart today.
you have given me vision, purpose and a goal to keep on going; transparency, harsh waves, lighthouse.
The realization and the voice I heard in my heart was so loud and clear. God wants me to be the light house. Light house is often placed in a pitch dark place and it's sole purpose is to shine the light so people/ship who were lost can see that light and get hope. And so that they can go to the right direction. (people who are lost spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally and are in dark dark place)-Thank you for placing people in my life Lord. The lighthouse can be placed in the middle of scary storm, waves, environment. the lighthouse can be hit with strong and scary waves, storms and it can seem overwhelming. I fear that. But, I trust in the Lord. (I see a tree where its root is spread so deeply into the soil that it can bear any circumstances). I saw a lighthouse that is transparent. God wants me to be a transparent lighthouse. Lord my prayer request is that I will be able to live that transparent life so that when your light shone, that other people can also see that bright and warm light. If my walls of the lighthouse is colored and blocked with things such as idols, dirty things, habits, evil things, etc, please help me realize them and help me to get rid of these things.
Lord you are great. you are wonderful. You are indescribable. Thank you for your presence in my life.
I love you Lord.
Amy,
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Hard times
What a tough week. What a heartbreaking week. I know it was something that had to be said sometime. It's probably better sooner than later. In short term, it hurts, and it pains us. but in long run it probably won't work. trust is broken. and i'm too hurt. but, i wonder if i made the right decision. i'm scared, i'm afraid that if i made the wrong decision, it pains me to hurt myself and THE. All the things that had happened in the past, memories, conversations, hurts, loves, hugs, sharing, stares, smiles, laughters... i have to put them in a treasure box and now i have to put that box away. i felt like i was ready. but when it actually happened, it hurt so much. why. is it because i'm selfish? i don't know. i think what pains me and scares me the most is that something i loved, valued so much might not be in my life anymore. i'm terrified. i know this will all pass as time passes... since 2002/2007 winter-2012.4.3.
broken...
God help me get through this time wisely. God help us get through this time with humble heart, God please help us not to feel lonely. God please help us to look to you for our everything. God, i miss THE. don't know what to do hnow. please guide me. please heal these broken hearts andw oulds and scars. i need your healing hands, healing words, I need your loving touch. can you hug me. can you embrace me. i need you lord. please let me feel your presense .. please let me hear yoru voice. i long, i want, i need. lord. please can you come and comfort my heart.
broken...
God help me get through this time wisely. God help us get through this time with humble heart, God please help us not to feel lonely. God please help us to look to you for our everything. God, i miss THE. don't know what to do hnow. please guide me. please heal these broken hearts andw oulds and scars. i need your healing hands, healing words, I need your loving touch. can you hug me. can you embrace me. i need you lord. please let me feel your presense .. please let me hear yoru voice. i long, i want, i need. lord. please can you come and comfort my heart.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
작사작곡.
I'm in love...
i'm in love with wanting acceptance
I'm in love with getting comforted
I'm in love with wanting to be loved
I'm in love with temporary things, moments, people that will fill my emptiness
I'm in love with feeling secured and protected
i'm in love with love.
Interesting how all these individual characteristics lead to God... But why am i looking somewhere else for this kind of love?
God desires relationships with me.
God accepts me
God comforts me
God loves me
God love is UNCONDITIONAL. never
God's love fills my heart full.. no.. his love overflows.
God protects me
God will never hurt me
God IS LOVE.
God.. i want to love you...
WILL YOU BE THER CENTER OF MY LIFE...?
How I long...
I long for a change
I long for a change in hearts
I long for a change in our attitudes
I long for a change in the thoughts
I long for a change in our wicked ways
I long for a change in our thoughtless acts
I long for a change in our hardened hearts
I long for a change in myself, ourselves, everyone.
We long for your love
We long for your touch
We long for your healing hands
We long for your steadfast love
We long for your forgiveness
We long for your grace and mercy
Would you make it tangible? Would you make it personal
So we know that you're here in this midst of dark and cold tunnel with us?
We need you LORD.
Will you speak to our souls and hearts and mind?
I long for your love, the love that can surround all darkness.
the love that can shine till the ends of the earth
the love that can warm our hearts and souls and make us new.
Will you be tangible? Will you make your love visible? It's cold.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Reading log for Socrates by Paul Johnson
"A person should be so deep in study that he forgets to eat, so full of joy in learning he ignores all practical worries, and so busy acquiring knowledge he does nto notice old age coming on." (6)
"Beyond knowledge, education was a process whereby virtue or the ability to lead a good life was acquired." (7-8)
"Beyond knowledge, education was a process whereby virtue or the ability to lead a good life was acquired." (7-8)
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Reading log
The Organic God by Margaret Feinberg
"What do you love about Jesus?" (pg56)
"God manages to remind me that no matter what I have done or left undone, I am still his. He has created me and redeemed me and summons me to himself. No matter where I go, no matter what I pass through--whatever elements of this world I'm exposed to --- his protection is secure. He is Lord. He is God. He is Holy. He is Savior. In my brokenness, imperfection, and sin, he whispers three holy words: YOU ARE MINE. " (pg 40)
"my heart wanted one thing, and my spirit wanted another" (pg 71)
"In my hunger to know God as he really is-- free from the pollution of preconceived notions-- I realize how much I need his voice. I need him to speak life and truth into my soul. I need him to illuminate my darkness and expose my sin. I need his words of hope and healing just as I need his words of discipline corrections. Apart from his voice, I will eventually wander my own way far from him. Apart from his voice, I will settle for lesser lovers. Apart from his voice, I cannot fall in love with him all over again." (pg 86)
"Show me my idols" (91)
"I began to see hwo so many things-- from work and money to friendships and worry for the future-- had become controlling forces in my life. I was bowing down to anything and everything but God. At the core of it all was my pride. Pride that I could handle things on my own. Pride that I didn't really need God. And worse, Pride that had partnered with selfishness so that the ultimate idol I bowed to was myself. (91)
**Wildly Infallible** (favorite chapter of the book)
"I am also realizing that my attitude and actions reveal a lot about what I really think about God. Do I see God as a giver or taker? If I view God as a giver, then I can't help but become more generous, but if I quietly see God as a taker or begrudging in any way, then I will hold on to my possessions with a firmer grasp. My giving exposes what I really believe is the true source of all the things I posses-- everything from time and money to clothes and cars. If I think everything comes from my own labors and work, then I will be slower to give than if I recognize that all good things--including material things-- come from God. " (135)
"God answers, bestows, blesses, blots, calls, cares, cleanses, clothes, comforts, corrects, counsels, covers, cuts off, delights, delivers, detests, disciplines, encourages, fills, forgives, gathers, gives, guards, guides, heals, hears, helps, holds, increases, keeps, knows, leads, lifts, listens, loves, opens, pours, preserves, protects, provides, purifies, rejoices, remembers, rescues, restores, rewards, satisfies, saves, speaks, strengthens, sustains, teaches, upholds, watches, works, and wounds." (175)
"What do you love about Jesus?" (pg56)
"God manages to remind me that no matter what I have done or left undone, I am still his. He has created me and redeemed me and summons me to himself. No matter where I go, no matter what I pass through--whatever elements of this world I'm exposed to --- his protection is secure. He is Lord. He is God. He is Holy. He is Savior. In my brokenness, imperfection, and sin, he whispers three holy words: YOU ARE MINE. " (pg 40)
"my heart wanted one thing, and my spirit wanted another" (pg 71)
"In my hunger to know God as he really is-- free from the pollution of preconceived notions-- I realize how much I need his voice. I need him to speak life and truth into my soul. I need him to illuminate my darkness and expose my sin. I need his words of hope and healing just as I need his words of discipline corrections. Apart from his voice, I will eventually wander my own way far from him. Apart from his voice, I will settle for lesser lovers. Apart from his voice, I cannot fall in love with him all over again." (pg 86)
"Show me my idols" (91)
"I began to see hwo so many things-- from work and money to friendships and worry for the future-- had become controlling forces in my life. I was bowing down to anything and everything but God. At the core of it all was my pride. Pride that I could handle things on my own. Pride that I didn't really need God. And worse, Pride that had partnered with selfishness so that the ultimate idol I bowed to was myself. (91)
**Wildly Infallible** (favorite chapter of the book)
"I am also realizing that my attitude and actions reveal a lot about what I really think about God. Do I see God as a giver or taker? If I view God as a giver, then I can't help but become more generous, but if I quietly see God as a taker or begrudging in any way, then I will hold on to my possessions with a firmer grasp. My giving exposes what I really believe is the true source of all the things I posses-- everything from time and money to clothes and cars. If I think everything comes from my own labors and work, then I will be slower to give than if I recognize that all good things--including material things-- come from God. " (135)
"God answers, bestows, blesses, blots, calls, cares, cleanses, clothes, comforts, corrects, counsels, covers, cuts off, delights, delivers, detests, disciplines, encourages, fills, forgives, gathers, gives, guards, guides, heals, hears, helps, holds, increases, keeps, knows, leads, lifts, listens, loves, opens, pours, preserves, protects, provides, purifies, rejoices, remembers, rescues, restores, rewards, satisfies, saves, speaks, strengthens, sustains, teaches, upholds, watches, works, and wounds." (175)
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
사랑.
위로 받기보다는 위로하고
애해받기 보다는 이해하며
사랑받기보다는 사랑하며
주님을 온전히 믿음으로 영생을 얻기때문이니
주여 나를 평화의 도구로 써주소서...
사랑은 표현하지 않으면 환상이고
슬퍼도 울수없는 고통이며
만남이 없는 그리움은 외로움일 뿐이다
표현되지 못한 감정은 아쉬운 아픔이 되고
행동이 없는 생각은 허무한 망상이 된다
사람이 숨을쉬고 바람이 부는 것처럼
살아있는 날엔 사랑을 하자 마음껏 울고 또 웃자
애해받기 보다는 이해하며
사랑받기보다는 사랑하며
주님을 온전히 믿음으로 영생을 얻기때문이니
주여 나를 평화의 도구로 써주소서...
사랑은 표현하지 않으면 환상이고
슬퍼도 울수없는 고통이며
만남이 없는 그리움은 외로움일 뿐이다
표현되지 못한 감정은 아쉬운 아픔이 되고
행동이 없는 생각은 허무한 망상이 된다
사람이 숨을쉬고 바람이 부는 것처럼
살아있는 날엔 사랑을 하자 마음껏 울고 또 웃자
Friday, January 13, 2012
just random scattered thoughts
First blog of the year.
I have been having a hard time about understanding the idea of church. and what church should be and what church is and how I need to be part of this thing called church. For a while, I have been feeling very discontinued from this "organization called the church" even though i know that churches do so many good things around the world.
My definition of church: Church is not about the building, denominations, different ways of worshiping, but rather it is a community filled with people who desires an intimate relationship with God and wants to grow in God and wants to love Him and love others.
independence, uniqueness. value of self is so high that we actually has dimishied view of community= people.
consumeristic view on people. utilitarian value of that person in my life. people become disposable. we leave.... people.... and we eventually learn to be alone.
genesis 2: Adam's in paradise & God creates Eve for Adam to not be by himself and be in alone state.
if we lived in a perfect world and had the perfect relationship with God, God is saying... that something will still be missing. wow. = why do we need church? b/c we were created for relationship.
I have been having a hard time about understanding the idea of church. and what church should be and what church is and how I need to be part of this thing called church. For a while, I have been feeling very discontinued from this "organization called the church" even though i know that churches do so many good things around the world.
My definition of church: Church is not about the building, denominations, different ways of worshiping, but rather it is a community filled with people who desires an intimate relationship with God and wants to grow in God and wants to love Him and love others.
independence, uniqueness. value of self is so high that we actually has dimishied view of community= people.
consumeristic view on people. utilitarian value of that person in my life. people become disposable. we leave.... people.... and we eventually learn to be alone.
genesis 2: Adam's in paradise & God creates Eve for Adam to not be by himself and be in alone state.
if we lived in a perfect world and had the perfect relationship with God, God is saying... that something will still be missing. wow. = why do we need church? b/c we were created for relationship.
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