Hard times

What a tough week. What a heartbreaking week. I know it was something that had to be said sometime. It's probably better sooner than later. In short term, it hurts, and it pains us. but in long run it probably won't work. trust is broken. and i'm too hurt. but, i wonder if i made the right decision. i'm scared, i'm afraid that if i made the wrong decision, it pains me to hurt myself and THE. All the things that had happened in the past, memories, conversations, hurts, loves, hugs, sharing, stares, smiles, laughters... i have to put them in a treasure box and now i have to put that box away. i felt like i was ready. but when it actually happened, it hurt so much. why. is it because i'm selfish? i don't know. i think what pains me and scares me the most is that something i loved, valued so much might not be in my life anymore. i'm terrified. i know this will all pass as time passes... since 2002/2007 winter-2012.4.3.


broken...
God help me get through this time wisely. God help us get through this time with humble heart, God please help us not to feel lonely. God please help us to look to you for our everything. God, i miss THE. don't know what to do hnow. please guide me. please heal these broken hearts andw oulds and scars. i need your healing hands, healing words, I need your loving touch. can you hug me. can you embrace me. i need you lord. please let me feel your presense .. please let me hear yoru voice. i long, i want, i need. lord. please can you come and comfort my heart.