God said "where are you?" "who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?" "what is this you have done?" and God cursed serpent.., 혼내ed Adam and Eve and then God made garments for Adam and Eve and clothed them.
Even though God knew everything, he listened to Adam and Eve's side of the story. He didn't 꾸중them even though he had every right to get mad at adam and eve for disobeying and blaming each other for the wrongdoings. But, God listened to them until they were done "explaining".
How many times do I try to blame others and be busy explaining why I did certain things that God would not be happy about? How many times have God listened to my side of the story and excuses I came up with. Lord forgive me for my shortcoming and my selfishness and Thank you for your grand heart.
why is that the man who was recorded to be walking faithfully with God for 300 years, and that he was no more alive because God took him away.. living total of 365 years when the avg age for ppl's life span was about 800-900 years?
Adam-->Noah 태어난거까지가 1056년. 그리구 when Noah was 500 years old, he gave birth to shem, ham, and Japheth. Flood happened when Noah was 600 years old therefore making it 1656 years after Adam was first created. Flood happened for 40 days (days/nights) and flooded for 150days (7월17일~ 10월1일(74일) tops of mountains became visible) and then after 40 days(11월10일) Noah let out a raven... 150days of flood and being flooded + 114 days of seeing mountain and sending raven + 7 more days of waiting and sent dove again.. and then waited 7 days.(11월21일) Meaning total of 278 days of flooding, flood and waiting until coming back to land. --> Noah was 601 years old. 2월 27일 땅이 다 말랐다. (came out of ark)
Noah Lived until 950/ lived 350 years after flood. After 1946 years after Adam was created, Abram was born from Shem's line who was a son of Noah). Abram was 86 years of when Hegar bore Ishmael. Abram was 99 years old when he changed his name to Abraham and at 99/100, he gave birth to isaac. Isaac was 60 when he cave birth to Jacob and Esau. acob took Esau's blessings by wearing goat skin and tricking dad... Jacob later had 12 sons. Isaac lived until 180 years. Jacob's 막내 was Joseph. He had dreams and his brothers hated him and sold him to his brothers. The Lord was with Joseph when he was sold and Lord was with him when he was seen favor in Egyptian )potiphar, pharaoh's officials/captain of the guard).and Lord was with Joseph even in prison which made Joseph to be top in the prison as well. (Lord gave him success in whatever he did). and Later to be a top of Egypt by interpreting Pharaoh's dream correctly. Later married Potiphera's daugther and had child Manasseh (b/c God made Joseph forget all his past troubles) and Ephraim (God made joseph fruitful in the land of suffering).
Later when Egypt and rest of the world was going through the 7 years of famine, Joseph's 10 brothers came to get grains. But joseph 혼내ed them saying that they're spies. Told the 10 brothers to leave the youngest "simeon" and bring back their youngest benjamin and they will be freed of prison. But in the midst of this joseph 챙겨ed them a bag full of silvers along with the grains. Later second trip to Egypt was made with benjamin and the other brothers. Joseph later revealed himself to the brothers by having a feast with them and later told them to go back. but tricked them by putting joseph's silver cup in benjamin's so they returned to be imprisoned. But, later joseph revealed his identity to his brothers and told them to bring his entire family including his father Jacob. The entire family came and joseph told pharaoh and Pharaoh gave them the best lands to live.. Later, Joseph brought his two sons Mannaseh and ephraim and Jacob blessed them. Younger son (Ephraim) was blessed to be "greater" than his older brother. After Jacob blessed his 12 sons and breathed his last breath. (took 40 days of preparing/embalming and 70 days of egyptians mourning for Joseph's father, jacob). Jacob was barried in land of Canaan with the approval and escort of Pharaoh and after the burial, Joseph returned to Egypt with his brothers.
Genesis 50:19-21 “Don’t be afraid. Am I in the place of God? 20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. 21 So then, don’t be afraid. I will provide for you and your children.” And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them."
After Joseph lived til 110 years. HE saw 4rd generation of ephraim's children. Told his brothers and the family to remember about the promised land told to Abraham, isaac, and Jacob. told them to surely follow God's aid to the promised land out of Egypt and bury Joseph's bones in that land.
Joseph was able to interpret all he dreams. But, he was humble and believed and told others that he "cannot do it" but "god will provide the answers and interpret for me". Joseph said "God has revealed... ____" to pharaoh. Lifted everything upto God. Joseph did not forget God. God lifted up Joseph to be the top and God made Joseph to be in charge of Egypt.
Lord I cannot do anything... you can do it... I wonder why even though the Bible mentions that the Lord was with Joseph the whole time, why did he go through hardships like being in prison when he didn't do anything wrong? why was Joseph put into that situation where he was "Seen" as a person who had sex with the leader's wife when he had the right intention?
Thursday, May 22, 2014
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
2013 Recap-보고싶은 한해
2013. Only 3 hours of 2013 is left.
Another year has gone by.
How have I grown over the past year?
How have I healed over the past year?
How have I loved over the past year?
How did I spend my 2013?
2013 was a year full of hurts. So many events came up in 2013. My beloved brother joined the military. I have gone through the two tough semesters in nursing in 2013. I have learned how to take care of general medsurg patients and OB patients and newborns. I have learned so much over the past 365days. I have felt the love of God, friends, family, and even strangers this year. In 2013, my heart has been pierced multiple times so deeply it even made it hard for me to breathe. Looking back at my 2013, my 23rd year of life, I should be counting so many blessings in my life. But, I catch myself not content with my life. I am rather longing for the love and 따뜻함 in my life.
I hope and pray that in 2014 will be a year where I can grow deeper in Christ and the year where I can deeply love others, and the year where I can be a nurse to those who are physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually hurt.
With holding on to my dear hope, 2013 is coming to an end.
To a brighter, happier, merrier, and more joyful 2014, here I come.
Another year has gone by.
How have I grown over the past year?
How have I healed over the past year?
How have I loved over the past year?
How did I spend my 2013?
2013 was a year full of hurts. So many events came up in 2013. My beloved brother joined the military. I have gone through the two tough semesters in nursing in 2013. I have learned how to take care of general medsurg patients and OB patients and newborns. I have learned so much over the past 365days. I have felt the love of God, friends, family, and even strangers this year. In 2013, my heart has been pierced multiple times so deeply it even made it hard for me to breathe. Looking back at my 2013, my 23rd year of life, I should be counting so many blessings in my life. But, I catch myself not content with my life. I am rather longing for the love and 따뜻함 in my life.
I hope and pray that in 2014 will be a year where I can grow deeper in Christ and the year where I can deeply love others, and the year where I can be a nurse to those who are physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually hurt.
With holding on to my dear hope, 2013 is coming to an end.
To a brighter, happier, merrier, and more joyful 2014, here I come.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
아버지란....
아버지 뽐내기 보다는 견디는 분
사랑받기보단 사랑 주는 분
사랑 받기를 원하기보단 사랑하기 위하는 분
함부오 아프지도 못하는 분
아파도 쉽게 아프다 하지 못하는 분
힘들어도 힘들다 내색하지 않는구나
내리는 바를 대신 맞고
아파 서더 힘들어도 속상해할수 없는 분
이런 사랑과 자부심과 희생때문애 아무도 얕보지 못하는구나
가장이 되고 가정에 기둥이 되어 주는 분
사랑으로 용기로 우리를 이끌어주는 분
눈물로 희생으로 우리를 지켜 주시는 분
우리의 슈퍼히로가 되줏시는 분
언제나 우리 편이신 분
자신을 사랑하기보다는 우리를 사랑하기에 바쁘신분
그립습니다 아버지...
아버지를 그립니다... 아버지를 생각합니다... 아버지를 사랑 합니다...
사랑받기보단 사랑 주는 분
사랑 받기를 원하기보단 사랑하기 위하는 분
함부오 아프지도 못하는 분
아파도 쉽게 아프다 하지 못하는 분
힘들어도 힘들다 내색하지 않는구나
내리는 바를 대신 맞고
아파 서더 힘들어도 속상해할수 없는 분
이런 사랑과 자부심과 희생때문애 아무도 얕보지 못하는구나
가장이 되고 가정에 기둥이 되어 주는 분
사랑으로 용기로 우리를 이끌어주는 분
눈물로 희생으로 우리를 지켜 주시는 분
우리의 슈퍼히로가 되줏시는 분
언제나 우리 편이신 분
자신을 사랑하기보다는 우리를 사랑하기에 바쁘신분
그립습니다 아버지...
아버지를 그립니다... 아버지를 생각합니다... 아버지를 사랑 합니다...
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
20대에 결정된다
지금 당장 나의 미래를 바라보는 주벼 사람의 솔직한 시선을 확인해보자.
'내가 10년 후 어떻게 살고 있을 것 같아요?"
아마도 사람들이 20대 여성인 나에게 기대하는 미래라는 것이 내자신이 생각하는 것에 비해 얼마나 평범하거나 초라한지 알수도 있을것이다. 나의 미래를 까궈가보자. 나의 삶에 목표를 다시한번 되돌려보자.
"내가 20대를 보내고 나서 가장 절실하게 깨달은 것 중의 하나가 세상엔 '인풋'이 없으면 결코 '아웃풋'도 없다는 것이다. 유형의 것이건 무형의 것이건 내가 뭔가를 얻기 바란다면 반드시 먼저 내것을 내어주어야한다. 내것을 내놓지 않고 얻기만 바라면 목표를 달성하지 못한다. 뒤늦게 무리하게목표를 달성하려다가 마지못해 내 것을 내놓아야 하는 상황도 생길수가 있다.물론 그때 내어놓아야 할 것은 처음에 투자했으면 되었을 것보다 훨씬큰 경우가 많다." -pg 111. Am i investing in something in my life? I say my hope and desire is to be closer to God and to be God's lighthouse for the people who are lost. Am I having in input in that dream so output can come out? Also, it's probably good for me to think about my Christian life as well. What is written here can be differently applied in my christian life. 무엇을 얻기 바래서 먼저 내것을 내어주는것이아니라, 하나님을 사랑하기 때문에, 그사랑에 대답하기위해, 내자신을 그리고 나의 소중한것들을 그리고 나의 idol들을 내려놓을줄 알아야한다. 이것을 알고도, 나는 내 삶에서 이런것들을 너무 간절히 붇들고 있는겄은 아닌가... 생각해보자.
-먼저 자기 자신과 연애하라-
Can I say YES to all these questions? If so, 그럴수 있는 사람이라면 충분히 자신을 사랑하고 있다고 보아도 좋을것 같다. -pg 127
*당신은 늦잠을 자는 어이없는 실수를 저질러서 회상에 큰 손해를 끼치고 시말서를 썼는데도 반성은 하되 자신을 원망하지 않고 미래를 낙관할수 있는가?
*남자친구에게서 '너란 여자 지긋지긋해' 라는 말과 이별 통고를 받아도 꿋꿋하게 '나는 사랑받을만한 사람이야'라고 생각을 할수있나?
*당신을 아는 사람들은 항상 당신을 소중하게 대해주는가?
*당신이 가장 좋아하는 노래나 생깔, 음식, 나라, 스타일, 배우 등을 누가 물어보면 한번에 대답할수있나?
*남과 함께 있는 시간도 좋지만, 혼자서도 즐거운 시간을 보낼수있나?
*다음에 다시 태어나도 처지나 환경만 조금 바꿔 당샌 자신으로 태어나고 싶나?
-자신감과 교만의 차이점-
자신감은 한마디로 '시녀를 거느리지 않는 공주가 되는것이다' 나보다 조금 앞서가는 그들을 자기 아래에 두려고 하는것이아니다. 교만은 어떻게든 다른 사람들을 깎아내려 상대적인 우월감을 느껴보려고 애를 쓴다. "이런 사람들은 아무리 겸손한 척해도 상대방의 마음을 불편하게 한다. 교만은 충치가 있는 사람의 구취처럼 입을 다물지 않는 한 숨길 수가 없는 것이다. 교만한 사람들은 또한 삶과 세상에 대한 겸허함이 없기 때문에 실패했을때 쉽게 좌절한다. '이렇게 대단한 내가 실패하다니! 이건 뭔가 잘못된거야. 인정할수없어' 라고 생각하는 사람은 영원히 성공할수 없다. Am I living my life in confidence or pride and arrogance? I hope I am living a life that has confidence in Christ...
이런 남자만은 피하라-
1. 우유부단한 남자 (이런 성격은 선량한 기질과 혼동되기 쉬워 웬만해서는 벗어나기가 힘들다. 이런 사람들은 상대를 축도록 힘들게 하면서도 모든 잘못은 상대방에게 있는 것 같은 상황을 만들어내기 일쑤다. 매사 흐리멍덩한 가운데 자신의 여자가 상처를 받도록 방치하기도 하고, 어찌어찌하다가 해서는 안 될일도 구렁이 담 넘어가듯 해버리는 이들이 바로 이런 남자들이다. 여자 만나기를 즐기는 프로 바람둥이가 아닌 아마추어 바람둥이가 백이면백 모두 우유부단한 남자들인 것도 결코 우연이 아닌것이다. 이런 사람들은 '처음부터 그 모든 상황들을 의도한것이 아니었다'는 이유러 너무 쉽게 용서를 받게 된다는 것이다. 사람과 이야기할때 눈을 잘 맞추지 못하고 쉽게 상황에 흔들리는 우유부단한 남자를 경계하라. 늪같은 사람이다. ) ㅋㅋㅋㅋ...
2. 왕년에만 잘나갔던 사람 (과거에 머문 그런 사람. 자신감이 없고 현실을 똑바로 바라볼 의지가 없는 사람들...
3. 나에게 무관심한 남자 - "관심은 애정의 기본이다. 당신이 지금 어떤 기분으로 어떻게 사는지 알려고 들지 않는 남자라면 애정이 없는것일것이다.
4. 너무 복잡한 남자...?
5. 중독자
오랜만에 읽는 very interesting read. 여자의 모든 인생은 20대에 결정된다 (실천편) by 남인숙.
'내가 10년 후 어떻게 살고 있을 것 같아요?"
아마도 사람들이 20대 여성인 나에게 기대하는 미래라는 것이 내자신이 생각하는 것에 비해 얼마나 평범하거나 초라한지 알수도 있을것이다. 나의 미래를 까궈가보자. 나의 삶에 목표를 다시한번 되돌려보자.
"내가 20대를 보내고 나서 가장 절실하게 깨달은 것 중의 하나가 세상엔 '인풋'이 없으면 결코 '아웃풋'도 없다는 것이다. 유형의 것이건 무형의 것이건 내가 뭔가를 얻기 바란다면 반드시 먼저 내것을 내어주어야한다. 내것을 내놓지 않고 얻기만 바라면 목표를 달성하지 못한다. 뒤늦게 무리하게목표를 달성하려다가 마지못해 내 것을 내놓아야 하는 상황도 생길수가 있다.물론 그때 내어놓아야 할 것은 처음에 투자했으면 되었을 것보다 훨씬큰 경우가 많다." -pg 111. Am i investing in something in my life? I say my hope and desire is to be closer to God and to be God's lighthouse for the people who are lost. Am I having in input in that dream so output can come out? Also, it's probably good for me to think about my Christian life as well. What is written here can be differently applied in my christian life. 무엇을 얻기 바래서 먼저 내것을 내어주는것이아니라, 하나님을 사랑하기 때문에, 그사랑에 대답하기위해, 내자신을 그리고 나의 소중한것들을 그리고 나의 idol들을 내려놓을줄 알아야한다. 이것을 알고도, 나는 내 삶에서 이런것들을 너무 간절히 붇들고 있는겄은 아닌가... 생각해보자.
-먼저 자기 자신과 연애하라-
Can I say YES to all these questions? If so, 그럴수 있는 사람이라면 충분히 자신을 사랑하고 있다고 보아도 좋을것 같다. -pg 127
*당신은 늦잠을 자는 어이없는 실수를 저질러서 회상에 큰 손해를 끼치고 시말서를 썼는데도 반성은 하되 자신을 원망하지 않고 미래를 낙관할수 있는가?
*남자친구에게서 '너란 여자 지긋지긋해' 라는 말과 이별 통고를 받아도 꿋꿋하게 '나는 사랑받을만한 사람이야'라고 생각을 할수있나?
*당신을 아는 사람들은 항상 당신을 소중하게 대해주는가?
*당신이 가장 좋아하는 노래나 생깔, 음식, 나라, 스타일, 배우 등을 누가 물어보면 한번에 대답할수있나?
*남과 함께 있는 시간도 좋지만, 혼자서도 즐거운 시간을 보낼수있나?
*다음에 다시 태어나도 처지나 환경만 조금 바꿔 당샌 자신으로 태어나고 싶나?
-자신감과 교만의 차이점-
자신감은 한마디로 '시녀를 거느리지 않는 공주가 되는것이다' 나보다 조금 앞서가는 그들을 자기 아래에 두려고 하는것이아니다. 교만은 어떻게든 다른 사람들을 깎아내려 상대적인 우월감을 느껴보려고 애를 쓴다. "이런 사람들은 아무리 겸손한 척해도 상대방의 마음을 불편하게 한다. 교만은 충치가 있는 사람의 구취처럼 입을 다물지 않는 한 숨길 수가 없는 것이다. 교만한 사람들은 또한 삶과 세상에 대한 겸허함이 없기 때문에 실패했을때 쉽게 좌절한다. '이렇게 대단한 내가 실패하다니! 이건 뭔가 잘못된거야. 인정할수없어' 라고 생각하는 사람은 영원히 성공할수 없다. Am I living my life in confidence or pride and arrogance? I hope I am living a life that has confidence in Christ...
이런 남자만은 피하라-
1. 우유부단한 남자 (이런 성격은 선량한 기질과 혼동되기 쉬워 웬만해서는 벗어나기가 힘들다. 이런 사람들은 상대를 축도록 힘들게 하면서도 모든 잘못은 상대방에게 있는 것 같은 상황을 만들어내기 일쑤다. 매사 흐리멍덩한 가운데 자신의 여자가 상처를 받도록 방치하기도 하고, 어찌어찌하다가 해서는 안 될일도 구렁이 담 넘어가듯 해버리는 이들이 바로 이런 남자들이다. 여자 만나기를 즐기는 프로 바람둥이가 아닌 아마추어 바람둥이가 백이면백 모두 우유부단한 남자들인 것도 결코 우연이 아닌것이다. 이런 사람들은 '처음부터 그 모든 상황들을 의도한것이 아니었다'는 이유러 너무 쉽게 용서를 받게 된다는 것이다. 사람과 이야기할때 눈을 잘 맞추지 못하고 쉽게 상황에 흔들리는 우유부단한 남자를 경계하라. 늪같은 사람이다. ) ㅋㅋㅋㅋ...
2. 왕년에만 잘나갔던 사람 (과거에 머문 그런 사람. 자신감이 없고 현실을 똑바로 바라볼 의지가 없는 사람들...
3. 나에게 무관심한 남자 - "관심은 애정의 기본이다. 당신이 지금 어떤 기분으로 어떻게 사는지 알려고 들지 않는 남자라면 애정이 없는것일것이다.
4. 너무 복잡한 남자...?
5. 중독자
오랜만에 읽는 very interesting read. 여자의 모든 인생은 20대에 결정된다 (실천편) by 남인숙.
Friday, August 9, 2013
strength
So many people have been recently telling me that I am very strong. At
first I didn't know how to respond to that statement because I always
thought I was very weak. (being strong mentally emotionally and
spiritually not physically) I was doing some thinking and self
reflecting.
I realized that the reason why I try my best to act/be strong is for the people I love. I feel like so many people around my life are so fragile. I love them so dearly and I fear everything falling apart if cannot be strong for them because they tend to lean on me when times are difficult and hopeless.
Stop. I want to make a note to myself. It should not be me whom gives the people I love strength or hope. It should be God. I have to constantly remember it is God who can give hope to the hopeless and help the helpless and love the people who need love.
At times, I also want to let go of this tiring responsibility and be free of these burdens to always stay strong for the people i love. I want to break down and cry. I also want to be prayed for... I also want to be taken care of... I also want to depend and lean on someone who can lead me to the right direction. I also want to be like a baby who needs parents to watch over her. I wonder if it is too much for me to ask for.
I want to tell everyone who thinks and believes that I am strong. In fact, I am very weak... Because I am very weak and because I feel burdened and overwhelmed when difficult situations pop up, the only direction I can turn to is to God... I am weak but God is strong, for that reason I can be strong because God is the one who gives me strength and hope to hold on til the end. Someone once told me that the reason why they think I'm strong is because I never give up on the people I love and also because even after all the difficult times, I can still be happy, joyful, and carry bright smiles. I praise the Lord for making me this way. I can't get any credit for this because I know it is God who created me this way. So... I hope whomever is reading this can remember that through God we can all be strong... :)
Both worry and stress reek of arrogance. They declare our tendency to forget that we've been forgiven, that our lives here are brief, that we are headed to a place where we won't be lonely, afraid, or hurt ever again, and that in the context of God's strength, our problems are small, indeed.
I realized that the reason why I try my best to act/be strong is for the people I love. I feel like so many people around my life are so fragile. I love them so dearly and I fear everything falling apart if cannot be strong for them because they tend to lean on me when times are difficult and hopeless.
Stop. I want to make a note to myself. It should not be me whom gives the people I love strength or hope. It should be God. I have to constantly remember it is God who can give hope to the hopeless and help the helpless and love the people who need love.
At times, I also want to let go of this tiring responsibility and be free of these burdens to always stay strong for the people i love. I want to break down and cry. I also want to be prayed for... I also want to be taken care of... I also want to depend and lean on someone who can lead me to the right direction. I also want to be like a baby who needs parents to watch over her. I wonder if it is too much for me to ask for.
I want to tell everyone who thinks and believes that I am strong. In fact, I am very weak... Because I am very weak and because I feel burdened and overwhelmed when difficult situations pop up, the only direction I can turn to is to God... I am weak but God is strong, for that reason I can be strong because God is the one who gives me strength and hope to hold on til the end. Someone once told me that the reason why they think I'm strong is because I never give up on the people I love and also because even after all the difficult times, I can still be happy, joyful, and carry bright smiles. I praise the Lord for making me this way. I can't get any credit for this because I know it is God who created me this way. So... I hope whomever is reading this can remember that through God we can all be strong... :)
Both worry and stress reek of arrogance. They declare our tendency to forget that we've been forgiven, that our lives here are brief, that we are headed to a place where we won't be lonely, afraid, or hurt ever again, and that in the context of God's strength, our problems are small, indeed.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
overwhelming life
The past 10 days, I've experienced, learned, realized, and heard so many things. The past 10 days, I went to a retreat and God helped me realize that I needed to hang on to him and that he gives me protection over things that seem scary. Also, He helped me realize the importance of being connected to a vine as a branch to bear much fruit. My source of life and safety and identity belongs to Him.
The past few days have been really challenging for me. There have been and still are many disagreements, hopelessness, and negativity around me. All the hopes that and promises I've realized at the retreat seems to be diminishing rather quickly. I pray and hope it won't go away ever again and that just like I have prayed, people I love will focus on their relationship with God much more than their current status, their feelings, or their hardships. I pray for their heart that they will wake up from detrimental lifestyle and life pattern to LIVE and be a CHRIST FOLLOWER, a disciple, instead of a crowd member.
John1:1- Jesus was in the beginning, and Jesus was with God, and Jesus was God. : I am praying and believing this great, majestic, mysterious, and powerful God. I pray that I will not identify myself as something/someone else but I pray that I put my identity in you.
John1:2- Jesus with God in the beginning- HE knows everything i'm going through... HE was there ever since in the beginning. He knows my heart, thoughts, desires, hurts, and frustration. He was there like he was with God in the beginning
John1:3- Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made- only through God things can be made. Only through God broken relationships can be healed. Only through God hurts can be healed. Only through him hopes can be restored and made again. Only through him a path towards the right direction can be made... only through you God... Please don't let me.. or anyone I love to forget about that.
John1:4In him was life, and that life was the light of men- In Jesus, there's life. Just like what God told me at the retreat, if a branch is disconnected from the vine, it will wither and die. God is our source of life. God is life and when we have that life, it can used as a tool to shine light to the men. So.. I need to be saved via God and I need to constantly live (hang on to the vine) to shine the light that is guiding me from inside to others..
John1:5- The light sines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it: I hope when God is shining light into my darkness that I will be able to recognize and understand that it is light to life. I pray that they will be able to recognize that light and understand it. If they are buried so deeply in that darkness, can you bring them out from that darkness?
John1:6-9- John came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe- God's vision in my life to be a lighthouse. Remember this. I'm not providing the light. I'm just the building that stands firm and it's the light that does all the work in giving right direction and hope.
John1:10- Even though God was in the world and through Him it was made, world did not recognize him- Am I being oblivious to God's presence and his work in my life? Am I not recognizing that he is the one who made me and he is the one who gave me life and hope to hang on and not to give up...? I pray that we will all recognize HIM
John1:11-13: when we believe in his name, God gives us right to be his children- repent... and turn back to God and truly and full heart believe in God's name and all his promises.. (to protect and help me get through this... Protection over people I love)
John1:14-22 When we see his glory and his grace and truth, am i crying out like John saying and proclaiming God's existence and his glory and do this freely and humbly
John1:29-34 John testified Jesus who takes away the sin of the world, sins in my life, sins in my family, and all the sins..
John1:36-51 Recognize Jesus like the two disciples and John and follow HIM and ask him questions and strive conversations with HIM. When God tells me to "come", I pray that i will go without hesitation and see what he is saying and spend a day with him...
The past few days have been really challenging for me. There have been and still are many disagreements, hopelessness, and negativity around me. All the hopes that and promises I've realized at the retreat seems to be diminishing rather quickly. I pray and hope it won't go away ever again and that just like I have prayed, people I love will focus on their relationship with God much more than their current status, their feelings, or their hardships. I pray for their heart that they will wake up from detrimental lifestyle and life pattern to LIVE and be a CHRIST FOLLOWER, a disciple, instead of a crowd member.
John1:1- Jesus was in the beginning, and Jesus was with God, and Jesus was God. : I am praying and believing this great, majestic, mysterious, and powerful God. I pray that I will not identify myself as something/someone else but I pray that I put my identity in you.
John1:2- Jesus with God in the beginning- HE knows everything i'm going through... HE was there ever since in the beginning. He knows my heart, thoughts, desires, hurts, and frustration. He was there like he was with God in the beginning
John1:3- Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made- only through God things can be made. Only through God broken relationships can be healed. Only through God hurts can be healed. Only through him hopes can be restored and made again. Only through him a path towards the right direction can be made... only through you God... Please don't let me.. or anyone I love to forget about that.
John1:4In him was life, and that life was the light of men- In Jesus, there's life. Just like what God told me at the retreat, if a branch is disconnected from the vine, it will wither and die. God is our source of life. God is life and when we have that life, it can used as a tool to shine light to the men. So.. I need to be saved via God and I need to constantly live (hang on to the vine) to shine the light that is guiding me from inside to others..
John1:5- The light sines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it: I hope when God is shining light into my darkness that I will be able to recognize and understand that it is light to life. I pray that they will be able to recognize that light and understand it. If they are buried so deeply in that darkness, can you bring them out from that darkness?
John1:6-9- John came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe- God's vision in my life to be a lighthouse. Remember this. I'm not providing the light. I'm just the building that stands firm and it's the light that does all the work in giving right direction and hope.
John1:10- Even though God was in the world and through Him it was made, world did not recognize him- Am I being oblivious to God's presence and his work in my life? Am I not recognizing that he is the one who made me and he is the one who gave me life and hope to hang on and not to give up...? I pray that we will all recognize HIM
John1:11-13: when we believe in his name, God gives us right to be his children- repent... and turn back to God and truly and full heart believe in God's name and all his promises.. (to protect and help me get through this... Protection over people I love)
John1:14-22 When we see his glory and his grace and truth, am i crying out like John saying and proclaiming God's existence and his glory and do this freely and humbly
John1:29-34 John testified Jesus who takes away the sin of the world, sins in my life, sins in my family, and all the sins..
John1:36-51 Recognize Jesus like the two disciples and John and follow HIM and ask him questions and strive conversations with HIM. When God tells me to "come", I pray that i will go without hesitation and see what he is saying and spend a day with him...
Saturday, March 9, 2013
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