Reading log

The Organic God by Margaret Feinberg

"What do you love about Jesus?" (pg56)

"God manages to remind me that no matter what I have done or left undone, I am still his. He has created me and redeemed me and summons me to himself. No matter where I go, no matter what I pass through--whatever elements of this world I'm exposed to --- his protection is secure. He is Lord. He is God. He is Holy. He is Savior. In my brokenness, imperfection, and sin, he whispers three holy words: YOU ARE MINE. " (pg 40)

"my heart wanted one thing, and my spirit wanted another" (pg 71)

"In my hunger to know God as he really is-- free from the pollution of preconceived notions-- I realize how much I need his voice. I need him to speak life and truth into my soul. I need him to illuminate my darkness and expose my sin. I need his words of hope and healing just as I need his words of discipline corrections. Apart from his voice, I will eventually wander my own way far from him. Apart from his voice, I will settle for lesser lovers. Apart from his voice, I cannot fall in love with him all over again." (pg 86)

"Show me my idols" (91)

"I began to see hwo so many things-- from work and money to friendships and worry for the future-- had become controlling forces in my life. I was bowing down to anything and everything but God. At the core of it all was my pride. Pride that I could handle things on my own. Pride that I didn't really need God. And worse, Pride that had partnered with selfishness so that the ultimate idol I bowed to was myself. (91)

**Wildly Infallible** (favorite chapter of the book)

"I am also realizing that my attitude and actions reveal a lot about what I really think about God. Do I see God as a giver or taker? If I view God as a giver, then I can't help but become more generous, but if I quietly see God as a taker or begrudging in any way, then I will hold on to my possessions with a firmer grasp. My giving exposes what I really believe is the true source of all the things I posses-- everything from time and money to clothes and cars. If I think everything comes from my own labors and work, then I will be slower to give than if I recognize that all good things--including material things-- come from God. " (135)

"God answers, bestows, blesses, blots, calls, cares, cleanses, clothes, comforts, corrects, counsels, covers, cuts off, delights, delivers, detests, disciplines, encourages, fills, forgives, gathers, gives, guards, guides, heals, hears, helps, holds, increases, keeps, knows, leads, lifts, listens, loves, opens, pours, preserves, protects, provides, purifies, rejoices, remembers, rescues, restores, rewards, satisfies, saves, speaks, strengthens, sustains, teaches, upholds, watches, works, and wounds." (175)

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