just random scattered thoughts

First blog of the year.

I have been having a hard time about understanding the idea of church. and what church should be and what church is and how I need to be part of this thing called church. For a while, I have been feeling very discontinued from this "organization called the church" even though i know that churches do so many good things around the world.

My definition of church: Church is not about the building, denominations, different ways of worshiping, but rather it is a community filled with people who desires an intimate relationship with God and wants to grow in God and wants to love Him and love others.

independence, uniqueness. value of self is so high that we actually has dimishied view of community= people.

consumeristic view on people. utilitarian value of that person in my life. people become disposable. we leave.... people.... and we eventually learn to be alone.

genesis 2: Adam's in paradise & God creates Eve for Adam to not be by himself and be in alone state.

if we lived in a perfect world and had the perfect relationship with God, God is saying... that something will still be missing. wow. = why do we need church? b/c we were created for relationship.